born to be awesome

2010-04-16T22:04:00.000+08:00

passer by : Hey! Guess what bit*h, u suck, and i started it because u commented on others first and you are like so damn demanding when playing volleyball, keep asking ppl to dive when u cant even run?-.- U suck big time man! So what if i fail my tests? And so what if my short but ****ing definitely longer than ur legs are short? U jus dunno how many dislike u because of ur attitude, u give others slutty attitude jus because u have the backing of one of our classmates whom i shall not mention who... And for god's sake, pls go p.e la hor, dumb bit*h And go fornicate ur self!!

dear passer by :

i din't state any name in that post . so how you know is YOU ? oh i get it . are you the someone i'm talking about ? are you GUILTY of what i have to say ? and yeah i'm a slutty bitch . if that's the answer you one . (:

2010-04-03T09:50:00.003+08:00

Thursday was kind of fun after school . played with the guides chuckie , heart attack and i have never . was fun and funny . :D went over and played volley ball with the usual people . super fun ! some day again ? perhaps a friday :DD

yesterday had tuition . and went to grandma's house and played mahjong . loss a lot . but oh well , it's just a game :D

today , i have plenty of homework to do . so i'm going to get started now . and i'm once again reluctant to get out of house . SHITTT

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came past some things online . sometimes i feel that you people-not mentioning who- are totally ridicules . "i don't like this person lor . so damn disgusting lurh . i show you her blog !" you don't like then don't go lor . i know this sometimes can be hot topics to speak off . but since you don't like it and feel disgusted then don't !

and yes , just because you know a lot of people does not make you 'sociable' in any sense. cause the friends you make are just as suckish as you . calling people fat ? yeah i admit i'm one . SO WHAT ! YOU ARE ONE TOO . failing all your test . pft . how i wish you would just retain next year so that i don't have to say that you're my classmate . saying others noob . what about you ? we may not be good in volleyball but at least we are having fun . it's not your ball . so don't comment if you want to play . telling others not to play because their noob . and this imply's to the ball's owner . want to play with the pros ? play with your usual friends . or just play soccer . OH I FORGOT ! YOUR LEGS ARE TOO SHORT ! fucking piece of shit . it's not the first time already . oh yeah and that day , your stupid friends with no brains poured water at us . you could have stopped them ? did you ? NO ! and you felt that it was funny . i put it up with you for a lot of days and when i told you to stop commenting you say that i'm lau lan and scolded me chee bye . you are no one to call me those words . can't take it ? don't play . fucking piece of shit .

i'm getting fucking irritated can ? GAH !

2010-03-31T18:23:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY !

yesterday

went for YOG practice . was okay . matches were nice :D oh yes . and SOME PEOPLE was bringing bad luck to the teams . damn stupid . inside joke :D after that , went for guides POP rehearsal . danced for about 3 hours . now my legs are like ... daddy picked me up from school and homed , after that , went to celebrate daddy's birthday .

today

had POA test . sure fail . i din't study . ): maths test , got 10/20 . careless to the max . went to look for Gillian after school and walked home . slept and just woke up . going to do my homework soon . after i have my bathe =x

2010-03-28T12:08:00.003+08:00

had a chat with Qi that day . she's right . even if they ignored me and i'm pissed by it so what ? i can't change the way they treat me . that's how they treat me and i can't change the fact . so as well live with it . thanks Jie . (L)

went to cut my hair yesterday because it was totally buang . actually, i just trim . so not much difference . and thanks sis ! she paid for my treatment cause she felt that my hair was way to horrible . thanks ! then went to nail palace cause my sis wanted to do manicure and pedicure . and she dragged me in as well =.= since she had a package with them , she somehow paid for my pedicure too . THANKS ! love love !

oh yes , did i mention that i have to leave class early for monday and tuesday ? so stupid . gah ! heading to SP on monday and Presbyterian High on tuesday . skipping english on monday , chem and poa on tuesday . stupid thing .

ps : it really doesn't work lor .

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school tomorrow . going to finish up my english and off to bed i go . dad's not back yet . means that i have to go to school myself . anyone want to accompany me ? HAHA . text me if you do see this . xD

2010-03-21T15:46:00.007+08:00

long time ago picture .

miss the times :)

it's good to see people happy . cause when people around you are happy . you too become happy . i'm happy for you . really am . miss the days where we gossip on the phone together . some how , it was really funny and disgusting . also , we always competed the amount of calories we lost . -laughs-

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school starts in a few hours time . time to have a good night sleep and have another hard day tomorrow. this holiday seems rally fast. i don't understand why. the past few holidays were all long and draggy. but this holiday is not enough. i want to stay at home more. i want to go out more.

anw,

MAN-U WON LIVERPOOL !

nights :)

2010-03-20T23:18:00.002+08:00

我很累。我真的很累。

都是你。如果不是你，他的部落各也不会比变成这样。

): tired lurh . 1 more day till school reopens .

2010-03-19T23:51:00.000+08:00

who was the person that made you smile today ?

not the person that i want .

it's late . have not done maths yet . although i did it once already . :D

2010-03-18T20:01:00.001+08:00

i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry

had fun today . thanks girl :)

2010-03-17T19:30:00.004+08:00

wo xi huan ni zai pang bian kan zhu wo .
wo xi huan ni shen wo de qi .
wo xi huang ni ting wo ku su .
wo xi huan ni wei wo zuo hen duo hen duo shi .
dan shi , wo jui xi huan de shi ni na ge mei li de xiao rong .

not done with anything for the holidays . will start doing tomorrow . meeting the guys tomorrow for our geography project . rayyan will be late . i'm afraid that i will be the only one there . or even worst . i will over sleep . aiya . i'. tired out . i don't want to go to school . i don't want to do anything lurh . :(

2010-03-16T12:36:00.002+08:00

yesterday was fun fun fun !

played all the way till mid night .

was Gabriel's birthday yesterday . went for his bbq .

made a new friend . i guess . HAHA !

nice girl though . :D

after the bbq , everyone left and it was the 5 of us left .

went on to gabriel's house to play poker .

and had a really sad encounter . his baby love bird died . poor thing . :(

after awhile we got bored and headed on with playing wii ~~~

i owned edwin twice ! damn happy .

everyone left at 12 midnight so i left too . :D

was really fun yesterday . hope to have something like this again !

tuition later . gosh !!

better get going to finish up my math questions .

seems like theres no moodle homework yet . so , yeah .

off to do maths and paper homework the teachers gave ;D

2010-03-14T19:20:00.004+08:00

last day of school was such a horrible experience. quarrels and all . school this year is so so tough .

dad got me a new lappy from the IT fair . happy with it . :D

camp was wonderful . although many changes were made . i was really happy to be able to spend 2 days with the guides . will get the pictures from ariany soon . also , COH this year was a pleasant one .

after breaking of camp , went to meet the ncc guys for the discussion of the UG camp. laughed like we never laughed before. gayish stuff . -laughs-

i just wish for more of these happy moments and less of the bad . talking about sad . Friday was miss wongs last day . kindda going to miss her . she's nice okay.

ps : now, i like singaporean malay guys more then the chinese . not being racist here.

and lastly ,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAO GUANG :)

2010-03-08T22:23:00.003+08:00

i used to thought life won't change. perhaps i'm wrong . wrong from the start . everything is changing around me. maybe it's true what my mom used to say. i have no one. no one at all. so what if friends are around me ? they can't help me with everything.

friends? friends ?! what ever. nothing much about friends. to some people, friends are just to make use of. doing homework for you and everything. and need i continue? i really wonder. if anything happens to my dad, what will happen to me ? probably i will just die ? without my dad, i can say that no one else is closer to me .

my dad gave me this. and now i am typing this to people that i feel is deserving for this.

i want to remind you of something , special, every time you see it

every time you glance at this, i want it to be a reminder that your presence in the world is such wonderful thing. you are s deserving of every happiness i can possibly wish, and i constantly find myself thinking of you and wishing you knew about the smiles you inspire . i want you to feel a glow in your heart just from knowing that you never, ever have to wonder if you're in someone's thoughts or if there's anybody out there who truly and lovingly appreciates you, because this is always going to be here to tell you how much... i do.

- Marra Best

2010-02-27T23:07:00.002+08:00

went to see my fortune for the year today . heard from sis it's really accurate.

cried while hearing it . well , some things are meant to be kept .

read someones post . is really disappointed about it . i thought the person understand me . but i think i'm wrong . perhaps we should just let this friendship fade away. friends are enough . by saying me not knowing you . whatever . if you can joke , why can't i ? it's not fair friend . it's not . i don't care less anymore .

i don't get why my emotions are running wild these few days. crying for nothing . well, maybe because of friends. or maybe known as just acquaintances. well, if even a close 'friend' says that his disapointed. then so be it. just leave me along. i just like the feeling of the old days. when i was happy and mostly smiling.

:')

2010-02-20T15:30:00.001+08:00

no doubt i'm tired . a lot of homework to be done . just wanted to say

happy birthday mr greedy dinosaur rubbish bin :D

2010-02-17T21:38:00.003+08:00

school started and is not used to the timing once again . many things happened . i have mixed feelings myself .

i'm tired out . how i wish we can just stop where we are and get one more week of break . i really need it . just 1 more day of break and i'll feel happy . i think i shall take a walk downstairs my house . :)

i'm not handing in english because i forgot her email =.=

2010-02-15T14:52:00.002+08:00

happy chinese new year !

second day of new year

and is losing alot of money !

calvin says : a lot meh ?

rachel says : yeah . :D

okay random .

not yet done with homework .

going to die on wednesday :x

whatever lurh :D

again , happy chinese new year , valentines day and total defence day :D

and and and and and ,

happy early chinese birthday to binny lam :D

i don't give a fucking care

2010-02-12T22:05:00.003+08:00

i don't give a fucking care about anything else now already okay . upper sec life sucks . but well , i'm in school to learn and not to think too much . ms phang says : great improvement in maths . and i'm happy about it :D

will be able to finally see loved ones tomorrow ! been waiting for this like long time . but need to catch up with work within these days too .

i'm tired out . i suddenly feel that the only person that i can trust is me . arhh . whatever .

ps : loved ones are loved with wy , wh , twin , and sy . sorry if i dint mention your name . <3

friends ?

2010-02-09T17:32:00.004+08:00

friends for years does not mean friends for life .

-

somehow , i'm starting to feel it this way . i know i can trust some people as even though we are different classes and cca , we are still good friends . however, sometimes, the feeling is not so with some. whatever. some people are born loners and maybe i'm one of them. :(

-

stressed up with maths and many other things. fully booked up this week although it's just days away from the chinese new year . seems like year 2010 is going to be a though year . with the ' i will work hard for this year' which i always don't in the end , is going to finally come true . somehow i guess :|

going back to poa homework now :D

A-Math common test tomorrow :( D&T trip tomorrow :(

ps: i'm starting to feel not me anymore

A-math kills

2010-02-08T19:08:00.002+08:00

A-math seriously kills .

if only it was that easy . (._.)

stuck with many many questions .

logarithm is killing me .

many things happened the past week .

shall not elaborate .

busy week ahead before the wonderful 4 days of fun comes !

will be able to see loved ones !

tuesday : napfa/tuition

wednesday : CGH

thursday : YOG _|_

friday : celebration .

i just want time to pass quickly .

ps : you just make me want to fall in love with you again . but i know it's impossible between us . being good friends is good enough . i will never want to spoil this super friendship of ours .

2010-02-05T23:35:00.003+08:00

things is turning out bad . i'm so freaking careless and causing me to not pass my freaking math test . rest of my tests are fine . As and Bs . quite happy . a math test next week . got to work really hard this weekend .

chinese new year is around the corner and i have yet to get my new year clothes =.= shall be going massive shopping tomorrow . far east , central , jp . however i have piano lesson in between . spoiler !

i just can't get away with the fact that you made that decision . it's not for me to say but yeah . :)

2010-01-31T14:27:00.002+08:00

me , sis , groom

me and Gavin

once again , i'm reluctant to go out .

yesterday was Adrian's wedding . din't manage to get a picture with yichen . ):

just realized how random Gavin is . he seriously don't sound like how he look . sometimes i really wonder why dint i see this side of him sooner . joker .

have yet to buy a top for new year . Melly wants to buy a boyfriend tee !

don't expect me to wear something fancy this year . cause i plan to wear a shirt with jeans .

HAHA ! first time okay .

shall go do dnt now . i am super lazy now to do anything . feel like lying on the bed . HAHA !

Adrian's wedding

2010-01-30T14:28:00.005+08:00

congratulations to Adrian kor kor and Yi Chen jie jie !

last long long okay ! :D

no homework for the weekend other then DnT .

feels really weird not having homework .

not being anything here .

just because there were plenty of work to be done the past week .

looking forward to later !

and daddy's home ! LUVS !

2010-01-28T20:30:00.003+08:00

had many longs days which seemed like weeks.

it has been a long time since i felt so shag.

quick updates :

yesterday :

POA test , rehearsal , study , home , study till late night.

today :

chem - lab to play water :D

el - got back holiday homework and got 25/30 for it . :DD

physics - got back test results 19/25 more room for improvement ! (:

geog - test . hope i pass it . seems wrong for most of the answers to me .

a math - went through some answers .

el - news maker

dnt - fun :D

UG exposure - fun but tired

found out that i will be going for the YOG . hope that i don't disappoint the school and my results won't drop !

no doubt that i'm hot tempered . but you were in the wrong . so don't push the blame on me . just blame me on being such a muddle head to be in the same group as you. and my biggest mistake was to vote you as the group leader . all you think about is _____ . seriously , you are making me super pissed off . and this is from me to you -> _|_ !

love my sisters and buddys !

2010-01-24T16:03:00.002+08:00

我一个人吃饭旅行到处走走停停

也一个人看书写信自己对话谈心

只是心又飘到了哪里

就连自己看也看不清

我想我不仅仅是失去你

kept singing this today . i don't know why . thanks to sis . played mahjong yesterday after a horrible start of the day . jo was going nuts . she kept doing this kissing thinggy . really happy and fun to have things the way it was during the holidays ! (L)

i have many things to do now . back to blog another time :D

2010-01-23T15:19:00.003+08:00

busy week 3 has finally ended and another busy week is on it's way.

stayed back till 6 everyday other then thursday. although tring, but the banner turned out great ! check out the banner at www.huayigirlguidez.blogspot.com !

failed math test. and is unhappy about it . will work extreme hard now as i dont want to stay back with ms phang again ! tests are coming up all next week. POA , Chemistry , A-Math , Geography . i think there's more . with addition to my research for dnt is not done . gosh !

ps : class currently rocks !

2010-01-10T16:09:00.002+08:00

long time ago picture .

planned to go out today but din't . was too lazy to .

tomorrow's going to be a long day again . don't like it .

talking on the phone with wanyi now .

with my geography not done yet .

went to the gym that day and found out that i was like only 158 .

pathetically short !

going to do my work now !

distratcted

2010-01-09T15:32:00.002+08:00

as distracted as the driver .

it took me 1hr plus to finish my geography homework thanks to distraction .

i had the intention of closing my blog but thought it would be a good place for me to relax .

i now done with half of geog and has phys and half more of geog to go.

piano lesson later . reluctant to go :(

have the thinking of stopping lesson . but it will go to waste .

if others can have extra lessons everyday , so can i !

i believe every word you say

2010-01-08T19:31:00.002+08:00

school tiring me up . just hope that this don't go on for long !

have to get the basics right !

i know i can cope with this !~

gym boosts me up !

perhaps i shall just head to the gym whenever i'm tired !

2010-01-05T17:41:00.002+08:00

school has officially reopened yesterday .

was clever enough not to bring any books . HAHA !

morning assembly is as boring as usual .

forgot to bring my thermometer . pft ! but nothing much .

the whole school was in good mood and no one was counted as late !

and before dismissal , mr lee told the sec 3s we had some peak performance class .

e1 , e2 and e5 were together . thank god ! :D

sat with yee .

got in and saw Beverley and Chelsea ! super happy . :D

then sat down and the thing started .

got spotted by Ken and Peter during the thing .

and home we go at 6 !

today , went to school with my thermometer . FINALLY

and went back to class .

did some sharing and yeah .

after recess was POA .

sucks okay . teacher not here . then she ask us to answer some questions .

pft .

after that was chem .

for the first day , it seems nice .

at least a good first impression is important eh ? :D

and after so , changing of sits . and homed .

I DON'T WANT TO SIT WITH JUNYU LURH HOR !

tomorrow , POA , Math , chinese , social studies . hope i can stay awake !

2010-01-02T19:51:00.002+08:00

long time since i took a picture with her !

slack at home up till 3 plus . went off for piano lesson . phone died again . i think there's this thing about my phone dying on every piano lesson i go to . whatever . left with chinese to do . and i'm done with my homework . school is starting soon . :(

2010-01-01T18:49:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE !

well , it's the start of a new year and what happened in 2009 are now memories !

new year resolutions ? hm ~

1. i will like to score for all my common tests.
2. improve my Chinese within the next 6 months .
- this will lead me in getting better grades ! (:
3. be able to concentrate on my studies !

well , 3 simple wishes . i bet i can do it !

in class 3E2 . with basket ball boys . and 6 girls . and others . i wonder if i can survive this .

movie with sisters tomorrow . meeting at 12 . have yet to call Yee up . (:

i'm starting to get nervous about school . although no more grudges ! :D

WISH EVERYONE A HAPPY 2010 AHEAD ! no matter what we face . it's just part and parcel of life ! LOVE EVERYONE !

ps : sorry javier . really dint mean it . :(

2009-12-30T21:40:00.003+08:00

I LOVE MY PANDA !

PANDA PROTECTION !

went to daddy's office today to send uncle andy his photos . finally done with it .

daddy asks if i want to go count down with him . now asking javier and valerie to go with me . *DRAGS !* hope his parents allow ! there to see fire works !

shopping tomorrow with rachel as well tomorrow . HAHA . waiting for his mom's reply . well , off i go ! byeee

2009-12-28T23:22:00.009+08:00

work today . [= met new friends ! nice people . kekes

anw , here to upload some of the pictures . too many of them . :) enjoy !

daddy and me at great wall

gabbie , me and andy goh jr [=
audie , valerie and me
daddy and me at harbin !

it's written with water , see the fading words ? ^^
javier , valerie and me

bottom row : eve , daddy , me , andy jr , audie

back row : auntie Aileen and uncle Andy
vandalise !!
me , Regina , Valerie and Javier

Liger . anw , i'm serious about the name . xD
white tiger !

bird nest !
me and valerie
on the ice !
notice : DON'T STEP ON THE ICE .

who cares anw ? HAHA !
Valerie and me at great wall !

this was suppose to be a jump shot ? ><
all the kids and teenagers !

front : Andy jr , Audie , Yue Chen , Sebastian

back : Shang Yuan , Javier , Regina , me , Valerie and Gabrielle :)

ps : the pictures are in random order :)

going to bed soon . anw , i wanted Sylvia to win !! damn it !

2009-12-27T15:39:00.003+08:00

I'M OFFICIALLY BACK !

china is awesomeeeeee !!

i want to go back to bei jing and harbin !

made friends there . see them day and night . it's really fantastic !

will not elaborate more cause if i do it will be a really long post . shall post the pictures next time cause my memory card is still not loading . tsk ! talking to Javier now and he is stil missing the Harbin beer ! HAHA !

meet up with you guys soon okay !

work tomorrow . hope there's no OT . cause BBQ at chenghao's tomorrow ! probably reach at 6 and leaving at 9 plus . cause it's a long journey back unless daddy decides to pick me up and bring me there . and i got a feeling that i have piano lesson tomorrow . hmm .. better call the teacher later :D

2009-12-17T19:50:00.002+08:00

work today again . today go take stocks and count them . so yeah . M1 cut away my line . now i can only receive calls and nothing else . so people ! i'm uncontactable . :( qi is not feeling well currently so take care and get well soon okay ! luvs :D

going off to Steffie's house later . to get the winter stuff . i just want to sleep now ~~ really reluctant . but no choice . super shag now . :(

BANG !

okay i shall let the pictures do the talking on what we have been doing . so yeah . i'm tired !

2009-12-15T17:58:00.004+08:00

IT'S RAINING LIKE ~~cats and dogs~~ THUNDER AND LIGHTNING NOW !

went out for lunch with Auntie Pat just now .

was really great !

had salmon ! yum yum .

talked about a lot of things and found out that ,

ADRIAN IS FINALLY GETTING MARRIED ! CONGRATS !!

and after that , homed . lazed at home . want to go for a jog and yes .

IT RAINED ! ><

so yes . talking to pig now . and i want to bathe ! so that's all .

ps : you're fired ! :)

2009-12-14T22:21:00.002+08:00

i only have three words to tell you . YOU DESERVE IT !

today was suckish . shall not say more about it . it sucks okay . especially when you are like a substitute . but who cares ? and seriously , when your pay is more , you work more . WAY MORE .

met Yee for lunch after that . and she was slow to the max ! after so , went to walk around . bought a hair bend and a pouch . too much earnings need to spend a bit . oh and THANK YOU SISTER ! for the wonderful bag . remember , it's the thought that counts ! love you many many .

out with Auntie Pat tomorrow . a bit reluctant . but well , it's my day off . so yup . half here half there . i don't know . cause i will feel bad by rejecting her . so , just go lor . aiya ! whatever ~~~

2009-12-12T18:01:00.002+08:00

enough is enough . i'm not the kind of girl that you can lay with . so stop it .

you hurt us . ALL OF US !

stop it . please .

no jab for me . the jab will only work after 2 weeks . and i only have 1 week . so yup . and also , shopped the whole day . tori-q with daddy . love him many many !

2009-12-11T21:12:00.003+08:00

WELCOME BACK !

although you haven't reach yet but . yup ! :D missED you LOADS !

i have loads of things to tell you . and complain about . really do . xD i think you will be like WTF ?! haha !

today went to work . was really busy . and i tell you hor abunehneh i not scared you one hor ! you cut people queue then you expect me to serve you ? fuck you man . i serve you you still give me black face . i scared later you too black people cannot see only arh . tsk !

KFC with AhYee and homed . bored to death . tomorrow still got work . no choice . so i asked for 1 day off on Monday . Auntie says no . :( sad TTM ! but never mind . going off to China soon !

i love my teddy bear ! <3

2009-12-07T20:38:00.004+08:00

today was great !

went to work . and all of us reached at the same time . (:

was really fun today . i don't know why . a lot of gossips and of course , FUN !

made calls and all the random shit . then after work went for lunch .

this is currently the most expensive meal i ate with Yee and Qi .

PIZZA HUT !

students meal for 5.90 . not that expensive .

but after we order garlic bread and dessert , the total amount for the food for three people was $30.82 .

so me and Yee decided to treat Qi cause it was her 'last' meal .

[ we made it sound as if she's dieing tomorrow =x ]

but anw , cause she's leaving for Thailand in less then 24 hours .

so we thought that we could at least treat her . you know , plus the shopping for us :D

she was like :' NO NO NO ! I CALL MY MOTHER AND TELL HER HOR .' (=.=)

[WHATEVER QI]

then after that we all went home cause qi had to pack her luggage . [which i think she's packing now]

plus , we did a lot of stupid things there . like bio-ing the ~~guy~~ hat . and QI's stupid act there . HAHA !

luvsisterstothemax ! <3

edwin's coming tomorrow morning for l4d ! hope i am able to learn it fast . and hope that the zombies won't turn out being potatoes ! with a hope it doesn't lag . HAHA !

okay and lastly ,

LIMSIAOCHI ! I'M MISSING YOU ALREADY !!

BRICETAN ! I'M MISSING YOU TOO !!

both of you enjoy your trip okay ! <3

2009-12-05T22:12:00.004+08:00

i'm back !

bad day or a good day ? hm ~ both .

bad day cause it was raining . and even before i could get a cab , i was all soak in water . not because of the rain . it was because of a fucking lorry . and i bet you all know what happened . so i'm not elaborating . [=

i'm happy cause , i'm in love with high school musical again . HAHA ! don't say that i'm childish okay ! cause as long as i'm happy , you've got nothing you can do . [=

pictures !

suprise SingYee !
AhYee , AhQi , Jo , JunTian and me !

2009-12-04T19:21:00.002+08:00

okay today , i got a lot of things to say . however , 70% of the things are things you wont want to read cause it is just on how suck-ish someone's life is . so yes . let me start off with things that is about my daily life !

as usual , went to work and all . not a lot of people . only served 2 person . cause i was either busy stock checking if not i was busy talking to the guys =x and , I'M NOT FLIRTING OKAY ! later people say i 'hong' people . after work , went to eat at JP . as everyone had something on , so i went home and watch TV . damn super boring . so now , i'm blogging !

okay that the end of my daily life . and and and ! here comes the not so nice part .

okay seriously , you suck okay .
not because i'm jealous . i just hate it .
the way you behave . the way you react to things . and even the way you treat your own life .

let's start with the basics . your life .
you just treat your life as an online game .
you just like a lot of guys at the same time .
girls will only like guys which are naughty ?
bull shit ! i bet this only implies to you !
having a different character in front of different people ?
so , which's the real you ? the one that we see ? or the lady like one ?
i guess it's the one we see . when you're with us and no guys are around , you just eat normally .
but when guy friends or even guys around us that you don't know , you eat in a lady like way .
you even act as if it's spicy or even if you're rushing for time .
for ? for us to get irritated and for them to see how busy or pathetic you are ?
it's no use . you know why ? cause they would rather trust someone that treasure their own lifes then some one which don't !

secondly . you need not show me the number of people in your contact list .
seriously . if you wanna compare ,
i can compare with you to the end .
not trying to show that who have more friends or anything .
just that no one cares about your personal life .
like today . you answered your phone through the speakers .
no one there wants to know who you are talking to and what both of you want to say .
even if you did it willingly , seriously , NO ONE CARES !
cause all we want is the music . nothing else .

third . can you not be so picky in food ?
just eat what is given to you !
you're not paying a cent and yet you're picking other people's food ?
and what's more is , you're sharing food with others !
hey ! can you not be so rude ? no one wants to eat your left overs .
and even if you don't like it , there is no reason for you to criticize what you don't like .
don't like it ? just shut up !
doesn't mean that what you don't like is not what others like .
the food is there for a reason . for you to choose .
no one is asking you to eat the food you don't like .

forth . can you don't be so self invite ?
even if you don't know that group of friends , you still go out with us ?
hello ~ wake up !
you're NOT INVITED !
not saying i am . but at least sister asked me .
no one ask you to stay and you complain that we're waisting your time cause of the things we do that displease you .
in the first place , NO ONE ASKED YOU OUT !

next , your attitude .
can you be more serious ?
just because you think that you're cute doesn't make you cute .
because that is what you think .
not everything in this world is funny .
seriously . when we're really pissed off , and we tell you the truth ,
what do you just do ?
you laugh ! and the first thing that comes to my mind is ,
are you mad ? seriously . and this makes me even more pissed off then before .
your promises were all empty promises . i don't think i can trust you anymore .

last , CAN YOU STOP BREAKING PEOPLE UP ?!
because of you , people are breaking up .
and because of you , people are angry with each other !
and just because you cat fight , doesn't mean anything .
to me , it's just a disgrace .
yes . i admit i've did it before . but have i ever tell the whole world about it ?
NO ! i won't want to tell it cause this shows how uncivilised we are .
and the thing was , you're not even supposed to be involved .
you joined them because of the name and nothing else .

conclusion , perhaps being your friend was my mistake .
thus , i can only blame myself for this .

and yes . i'm done with my complain . [=

2009-12-03T16:31:00.002+08:00

it's been a long time since there's pictures . ><

surprise surprise ! i'm not going for lesson . cause 1 , it's raining . and 2 , i'm damn tired and i don't have the mood today . works yesterday was fun . did a lot of rubbish and of course gossips !

and we heard ghost stories and we all scared ourselves . =.= especially auntie Lam . HAHA ! after so , heavy rain and uncle Lam [auntie Lam's husband obviously] fetch us to bbt shop . and , his car is ultra cool ! i like ! and after that went to JP for lunch . bought some things and went home . on the bus , saw Jolene and Sandra . they were heading for dance . [=

work tomorrow . hope it's as busy as the past few days . but hope it doesn't rain . AGAIN . piano changed to Saturday . so no mahjong . oh maybe a while only . HAHA !

ps : it was much expected [=

2009-12-01T23:17:00.002+08:00

tiong bahru > great world > ahma house > homed

boring day . buddy was suppose to install l4d for me but yet i was going to great world . so it's being pushed back again . tiong for lunch and went to face shop to get nail polish as jo wanted . after so went to great world . G2000 as so on . while waiting for today's lead , we went to play arcade . long time since i played it and we played to DDR . first time for jo and well me . so it was fun . and we were sweating by the time we got out of the arcade . after so went to best and yeah . still waiting for the lead . and finally he came ! went to g2000 and after so , SASA ! jo got fake nails and ice pad . going to get fake nails from her . muahaha ! dinner at grandma's place and daddy picked me up .

ps : some one embarrassed herself HAHA !

work tomorrow . hope it wont be as busy as monday . and i've yet to get my pay . =x brice's leaving on thursday . i pity you big boy ! he's going japan to eat sleep ~~play~~ pray . and he hates it .

and i miss all the ST people truck loads !

i want to see you people soon !

2009-11-29T21:57:00.003+08:00

FUN FUN FUN !

today is like super de-duper fun !

went to marina barrage again ! was really nice . went with the usual . went onto the bridge and was woohoo ! nice ~ was getting bored and we played truth or dare . was super fun . but really damn damn embarrassing . sis things like running around all players and also licking stuff . played for perhaps 2 hours until all of us were like wtf . HAHA ! headed to the gallery . was boring ! then after so , headed to the top and soon after , SOUL GARDEN !

headed to marina square and went to have dinner . was really nice until dessert . the ice cream were all watery ! so how do you expect us to eat it ? well , me being nice ask the server there " erm sorry the ice cream is melted so .." replied " then you have to wait for it to be frozen " if he told me that sentence nicely , i have got nothing to say . but the way he spoke was like want to fight is it ? hey ! i'm paying damn fucking much for the service charge and what i got was this ? fuck you ! but being nice , i dint as for a feed back form . should have just asked for the feed back form . -regrets !- after so , headed to city hall MRT and homed ! was a fun fun day overall . so yup !

work tomorrow . but i'll be working for 3 hours only . gahh . because of some reasons . [= so yeah . hope auntie won't be angry =x well , i'm tired . today was really great . pictures sadly to say , i took none . so JOJO ! IT'S TO YOU !~

ps : i like the dance of ring ding dong . teach me someone !

2009-11-26T09:42:00.002+08:00

i forgot what we were fighting for .

@ 1904

the super hot sun make me have a headache . today was boring . other then having web cam with AhYee ! love her . the game was super funny . we just made each other die . and and and ! she make me die the last second . >.> kills singyee !

gym tomorrow ! this time with a new guest ! WANXING ! haha ! gossipsssss !

how old already still like that ?

2009-11-25T20:39:00.000+08:00

today was busy . but i like it . pack books up and down . my legs are aching . i feel so old now . i was pissed too . sisters know why . then me and baby played the trolly . super funny . HUAYI CRABS LURH HOR . HAHA ! aunty lam ordered pizza for us . THANK YOU !

went for lunch after that , after so , walked for awhile then homed . i feel so broke now . i can't even buy wrapping paper ! but the wrapping paper is expensive . and nice . so , yeah . [=

work on saturday . maybe kite flying on sunday with love ones .

and and , THANK YOU YIM KA HAO .

although only 1 book but better then nothing ! xD

buying books on saturday . so i need to bring like a bag pack . after so , wrapping paper here i come ! HAHA !

and , i saw SOMEONE at JP !

p.s. what we say is true . HAHA !

@2031

i found someone more spoilt then me now . who ? my sister . some attitude of hers . complaining to bitch now .

-/ dream to believe , born to be awesome says:
*omgosh i thought that i was a spoilt 'bread' . sis is even more spoilt then me
*i feel like giving her 1 slap now .

& Draw that fine line around sanity. says:
*why

-/ dream to believe , born to be awesome says:
*wiwin donno how to go JP .
*then call her go to taman jurong and packet right ?
*she dont want .
*she say even if she donno also must go .
*then call delivery right ?
*now wiwin wait for the bus so long no bus my daddy need to waste money fetch wiwin there .
*she say people childish look whos the childish one now lor .
*i so fuck tired today already still need to see her stupid kuku face .
*sopiler lurh .
*SHIT !!
*:@

& Draw that fine line around sanity. says:
*maybe pmsing lor.

-/ dream to believe , born to be awesome says:
*i donno her lurh .
*then that time just because of some small small thing she want to break up with liang wei .
*like that i rather she don't start the relationship .
*_|_

& Draw that fine line around sanity. says:
*what to do.

-/ dream to believe , born to be awesome says:
*she's crazy lurh ...
*also donno what she want . >.>

& Draw that fine line around sanity. says:
*hais.
*life's stressful.

-/ dream to believe , born to be awesome says:
*haha . not stress lurh .
*just hate her fucking attitude .
*now i know why i always fight with her when i was young ^^

& Draw that fine line around sanity. says:
*lolol

20+ years old ? yes she is . acting like a 3 year old kid .

"don't want !! i want to eat macdonalsssss" imitates 3 year old kid . fucked up because of her . fuck !

2009-11-24T13:39:00.002+08:00

had a long long chat with sisters yesterday . really nice . i guess . laughter every where .

boring day today . i want to go for a jog but i'm well , lazy . gym soon ?! xD tomorrow need to wake up early again . found out a lot of stupid things yesterday . right qi ? right yee ? HAHA ! just a random update . i'm just bored .

work tomorrow !

2009-11-23T11:23:00.004+08:00

i'm at my dad's office again ! and once again , i'm bored . a lot of people in the office today . i don't know why . am i regretting this ? not really yet .

oh yes , i bought my everlast shorts and red converse shoes yesterday . thanks to DADDY ! was suppose to get the luggage abd winter clothes . so i some how took advantage of him ? HAHA . sorry qi for not waiting . but i still need another everlast shorts . so , don't worry ! i'll still go with you . :D

no work today . i'm not on duty . tomorrow we'll be moving to the classrooms . see you there okay ! i'm still having leg aches even though it has been 2 days . sucks to the core . i could barely move yesterday . gahh . ohohoh ! and i may be learning street jazz after all . my persuasion does work okay ... kekes .

and seriously , i am starting to regret coming out from home . (._.)

-

@1201

hey buddy , thanks for telling me . [=
maybe i do care who you like . HAHA ! and thanks for accompanying me just now . haha ! see you at your trainning . xD

2009-11-21T20:25:00.002+08:00

hakim , are you talking about this picture ?! HAHA !

today went to west division . got bored and took pictures for them . (:

after so , sat 98 planning to go home . was with fiqah and sister (: half way , baby called . ask me go dance point to dance with her . as we wanted to learn hiphop . i like the street jazz and guy hip hop ! i know you want me !~ haha !

reached home around 7 ? bathe and dinner . told daddy i want to learn street jazz . but he say he rather ask me to learn muay thai . actually , i don't mind at all . cause it's just to stop my weight from fluctuating . sounds like taxes =.= but yeah . so baby , i'm sorry ! it was fun today though . and to sister and fiqah love you 2 to the max !! (L)

2009-11-20T19:33:00.002+08:00

i'm back ! and i just found out today i lost 2 kg ! a bit little but a good start !

today went to work as usual . was late =x and the first customer came even earlier then me and qi . HAHA ! Aunty had to do it herself . opsy ! work was fun today . 2 person = more things to do . npcc was there in the afternoon . chat for awhile as there were no customers . and i think i got an answer from a chat with old friend . then after so , went to jp for lunch . bought myself some clips as my fringe was making me look like i'm a ghost . =.=

ohoh ! and i told sister i'm not going to buy fbts anymore . cause i'm going to buy everlast ! quality is so much better . but the price is ex . but it's worth it . cause as i said , better quality ! and , i'm going to buy my red converse on sunday . HAHA ! [this one is i say one] cause daddy and i are going shopping for winter clothes for our trip . so i'm going to drag him to queensway to get my converse shoes ! [i'm not getting FBTs !]

i'm sorry if i asked you who you liked . i think i know who it is already . old friend dint tell me . i guessed it myself . although i don't really like her , i cannot stop you from liking her . cause it's your relationship . not mine . as i told sister yesterday , i can't stop you from liking some one . it's not as if i like you . you're just a buddy to me . and , i don't want our buddy relationship to be spoilt because of some girl you like . if sister can accept her , i guess i can too . i know you won't be seeing this anyway . but , i just want to make myself clear . if both of you like each other , i have no right to stop you . if you won't say , i have no reason to keep asking you and forcing you to tell me . so , i'm sorry . perhaps after next year , i'll just be more open .

i sometimes feel that i'm more open now . do you ? i hope i am . i feel the change in me . although sometimes i still act like a kid . but i don't mean it . i'm changing for the better . trust me .

early in the morning tomorrow at J.E. MRT . i think i'm going to sleep on 51 while i'm on the way to commonwealth . sister please lend me your shoulder tomorrow ! haha ! <3

p.s. : i'm damn tired but i'm happy .

p.s.s : the highlighted words are to show that the same word means different person [=

2009-11-18T16:49:00.005+08:00

i need sleep lurh !

today's bookshop was slack to the max ! but we got more pay . -thanks to fishy !-

chit chat for most of the time . waiting for chicken and fishy's conference tonight ! i can't wait to bitch with them ! i have no mood lurh . i can't sleep even though i'm so freaking tired . :(

extravaganza tomorrow . i really don't want to walk there tomorrow and if it rains , i'm going to report sick . waking up so early every day ? this don't seem like a holiday break to me . thinking to wake up late even on a saturday is hard now . it's either bookshop or CCA . am i regretting on my choice of book shop ? i hope not . i like the job .

west division on saturday . can i skip it ? the thing that i'll be doing is not my choice . i'm afraid that i can't take it . i scared .

i'm doubting you . doubting you hard . did you really go there before ? are you starting to loose my trust again ? i think you are . from what you say and what she say is different . totally different . perhaps things do change . but not that much right ? sorry to say but i think that you are just trying to fake out a show to us .

are you loosing trust in me ? i think so . but i hope not . i really treasure a friend like you . i really do . you are just like a sister to me . i really hope even if we are in different classes , we will still be besties forever . we can still go home together like last time right ? i believe so . i apologise in advance for saturday . we don't mean it .

okay i'm done with my cock . so yeah . :)

@1941

Ng

haha !

eh is ivan okay already arh ?

heard he go op .

7:19pmNg

he really go operation

but then not sure he recovered or not

7:19pmNg

ooo .

7:19pmNg

yeah

he wont go tmrw la

7:19pmNg

ooo . he lurh . run so much .

7:19pmNg

lols

his joint problem

7:20pmNg

ooo .

oh i heard from mr ngian that he wants dnt

LOL weirdd

7:21pmNg

wth

mr tan approach me too

7:21pmNg

take lurhhhh

7:22pmNg

dont want

cause it takes yp a lot of time

up *

7:22pmNg

ok lorrr

eh sian lurhhh . i dont want to go tmorrowwww

like a dog lor hy

7:23pmNg

we are hy dogs

stop whining

LOL

7:26pmNg

haha . that's like so me .

you also not first day know me .

cheyy

7:27pmNg

lols

this is what happen when you have the same surname on facebook . sucks okay . =.=

2009-11-17T21:22:00.002+08:00

baked today !

today was superb fun ! everything in my mind was just happy . all the tiredness , hatred , all gone ! was rally nice . baked with dino's once again ! started off okay ~ but the cookies came out tasting okay only . after soon , biggest dino came . i kind off forgot what happen though . 2nd batch was a failure . was all black . T.T but after so was great . after we finished baking , we played with the remaining flour . was super ... stupid =.= we were all white . that marcus chee lurh ! take flour put onto my face and was taken down by jolene teo . >.> but over all was fun ! had pizza hut for dinner .

school tomorrow again . and extravaganza on thursday . i really have no choice but to go . cause i'm on duty . and i rather go for duty then run . sorry , i'm not that kind of sporty girl . HAHA ! early rest tonight . and pictures soon !

ps : MARCUS CHEE ! IF MY FACE GOT ONE MORE EXTRA PIMPLE I'M GOING TO KILL YOU !

pps : mr ngian is loved for what he said yesterday . HAHA

2009-11-15T13:22:00.002+08:00

i want to watch 2012 !

711 > school > home

super busy day yesterday . wake up like 630 and off to 711 to meet the girls . as usual , singyee couldn't wake up . AGAIN . [4th time] so went to 711 . waited for qi . was super late by then . no choice buy then walk and eat . bought pasta ? super creamy . definitely not for a early breakfast . went on to school for work . did a lot of things . npcc was there . so it was much more fun i guess . after so dad called . made my emotions change . zzz then after so , got pay and went home . after home continue that talk with dad and cousins came . laptop-ed all the way until dino came . played mahjong . was fun . but my headach was really terrible . gahhhh ~ then they went home and off to bed . [btw , dino was really lame yesterday . he and my stupid plush tortise]

today , at home SLACK ! no one's at home including the maid . now i've got no lunch and i'm lazy to move my butt off the stupid computer chair . with a buy one get one free of stomach cramp . today is perhaps the 'best' day to be on a diet . [as if]

regrets on not buying lunch when i was out for breakfast . thought of mac delivery but no cash on hand NOW . [although i just got my pay -> i don't want to spend it .]

saving money for :

red converse low cut shoes [SNATCHED FROM DINO !]
first month pay treat that i promised dad .
B.U.M. shoes
mcphysis[how the hell do you spell this ?] bag
my fbts which i have yet to buy since 6 months ago

i'm going to be broke after this . plus , 1 lg lost = $50 from my dad . but i'm not going to take his money anyway . he will just have to buy the stuff i want for me . HAHA !

2009-11-13T11:01:00.006+08:00

我不要啦 !

why like that ?!!?!?!?!?!?! i got into the course i want and yet he that dint choose that course got in ?! 4D also not so accurate .

@1612 [who's birthday huh ? xD]

had a hard time editing this because of the picture . and the words are still not blinking . =.= well , actually , i've thought about it and it doesn't matter who's in the class . as long as my results are good . right ?! xD school tomorrow .

p.s. : i want to bake !

2009-11-12T20:55:00.002+08:00

well , today back to school for sub class . aunty say's we will work on Saturday morning 8am ! but we are allowed to wear pe . yipee ! went for sub . MR LEOW BOMBED US ! BIG TIME ! but we went to comp lab and did what we wanted . so HAHA !

meet qi in the morning for breakfast . SING YEE OVERSLEPT ! AND I BROUGHT YOUR UMBRELLA ! well , had some talk . and MACDONALS CHEATED MY 4 BUCKS ! _|_

after soon , homed . still waiting for yee to send me the pictures . gah .

piano lesson . okay i admit i dint practice this week . totally screw . waisted my time there . blehhh

2009-11-11T14:17:00.002+08:00

GYM AGAIN !

yeah went to gym today with sisters ! had much fun ~~ gossips . xD just found out how some people can become that disgusting . faints ~ but who cares ? took pictures at the gym too ! shall post them when i get them from qi and yee . i dint take any because of my lousy phone camera . homed . then qi's asshole called . we were like crazy people ? never mind . talk for awhile and sent them off . super stupid .

school tomorrow . last lesson . finally ! will be in school for the next 3 days . HAHA ! i want my results soon but i scared . super some more . faints ~

2009-11-09T15:35:00.004+08:00

sorry but i can't take it anymore

why are you like that ? trying to break u other's happy relationship . forcing others to be together ? trying to break them up after that ? what for ?! because you don't get yours does not mean others can't get theirs . your selfish . plain selfish ! perhaps you don't know that it's a real bitchy way . or maybe , YOU DO ! calling people for the sick of calling or ? perhaps i don't have the right to say about this .

when we don't go you don't come . so perhaps we should tell you that we'll not be there anymore . and expected like today . when all of us say that we won't be there , you dint show up . so what's with you ?

arhhh done with that stupid thing .

went to school today . -was a last minute arrangement- was raining . AGAIN ! leow really cannot conduct sub class . cause it will confirm rain . haha ! my prediction though . went to school . went class hunting . walk from 1st floor to last floor dint get to see anyone . so went to canteen to find cheryl . then later azan said that they were at lab 3 . what the hell ! i passed by and din't know . stupid me . went in . got a shock of my life . HAHA ! shall not say anything here . starting on my work . qi came late . but it's okay . did our work and played . cheng guan was sooooooooooo irritating ! after math , went to JP for lunch with DiWei . ate lai lai until a dog came =.= *woofs!*

to the dog : if you open mouth close mouth also want to hurt my feelings than you better close your mouth and fucking shut up !

direct translation:

如果你开口闭口都会伤害到我的感受，我领愿你不要开你那个兰金口 !

back to where i was saying . as qi needed to g0 hougang i think later . -which they should be there already- then walked around bought some stuff . and practically DiWei scammed the person ? or the shop kipper stupid ? HAHA ! they buy sweet suppose to be 5 dollars . paid the full amount but they returned $2.50 . =.= stupid people . then went to minitoons . someone bought someone something . HAHA ! shall not say anything . and we said that we will tell the whole world first before we tell her . then she will paiseh when she thought she can spread . muahahaha ! bad to the max ! after so , saw cheryl , shahul , shafiq and rayyan at LJS . then carried on shopping and went home !

it's so fucking cold now ?

@2155

btw , i saw someone with his girl friend .

me : qi -stares at him-

me and qi : EHHHHHHH !

he : shit

HAHAH ! people will paiseh one wor ~ walk so fast . HAHA ! okay . that's all i have to say . i'm lame i know . AND I STILL HATE THE 2 DOGS !

2009-11-07T19:38:00.003+08:00

another day with the DINOs ! (L)

super fun day again ! today i was late . AGAIN ! you can't blame me . haha ! who call them . suppose to meet at 1 . then the Marcus Chee over sleep cannot wake up . tsk ! xD went out with sis then took bus to science center ! reach there wanted to eat ice-cream . machine out of order . SHINGZ ! haha ! then headed into science soon after . we went in and saw this ispace i guess . was super nice . will get the picture when Jolene post it . so going to cope can . HAHA ! super nice . other then that idiotic man that we played with . after so ,

BODY WORLD !

the exhibition was superb ! it's really nice . yet the first section was heart breaking . seeing the little babies getting aborted and put there for us to see . it's really disheartening . but it's educational . went on to see many stuff . practically is the whole body . from muscles to bones and even the vessels . so it's really worth the money to go see it . had a lot of funny things coming from Rachel as usual . HAHA ! gibra . xD -inside joke-

after that was home . had bad mouthing sessions with Rachel again . was really nice . cause we get to know each other's life better . HAHA ! (L)

2009-11-06T15:44:00.003+08:00

okay i'm back ! today has been bored . and i'm going for piano lesson later . so yeah . dad's picking me up and after lesson , we'll be registering for my maths tuition . well , since every one's taking A Math and E math . but i'm just afraid that i won't get into A Math for my course . gosh ! maybe i should just tell my dad to chill first . HAHA !

okay some random stuff here .

Ris Low .

every one's talking about her . but , what's wrong with just being herself ? i admit i do imitate her sometimes but i just feel that sometimes , people get too overboard . can you imagine yourself talking with people imitating you ? 1 is already very irritating . can you imagine the whole of Singapore ? i have took perhaps 1 hour to look at most of Ris Low's videos . [yes , i'm too free] and i feel that if she hadn't commit fault , she has the rights to continue holding on to her crown . although is English is not really good . in the streets of Singapore , i bet that you can find people that speaks worse English then her . even if fans of other contestants don't like her , they don't have the right to criticise her . cause everyone has their own preference . sometimes , i just feel that Singaporeans mind are so darn shallow . so what if you think she is not up to standard ? are you up to standard in the first place ? if the 1st runner up is much more beautiful , i agree . but her voice ? NO WAY ! from what they both say . i guess Claire Lee is just another hypocrite .

okay done .

lesson later and it's going to rain . jacket is a must today . gah !

2009-11-05T17:25:00.002+08:00

mac's > school > JP > home !

well , Qi complained to us all over again today at macs . HAHA ! was suppose to meet at 745 . and when we all came . it was 815 . claps for us ! headed to school after that . cheryl sms-ed qi . mr leow want us to reach before 11 . and that is when the class end . =.= so headed to the lab . blah blah blah . did some stupid quiz . then went off for lunch ! a lot of people . then play and everything . them homed .

watched the guest of room 0 . damn nice ! must watch . i intend to download it . but , i can watch it online . so perhaps not . and i want to play hotel 626 ! but i'm scared !!! andy says he's going to play . and maybe i will call up dino mei to play with me . through phone . HAHA ! okay that's all . i'm tired and cold !

2009-11-04T18:40:00.003+08:00

Mr. Brain

must watch

i just finish watching Mr.Brain . super nice !! it's a must watch ! super cool . it took me probably 1 day to finish the entire series . cause i watched starting last night . super nice ! i'm now watching maou again . i forgot which episode i stopped at . gah ! so irritating . so i'm re-watching it . yipee !

some people just can't accept the fact that other's are more loved then she is . chey !

2009-11-03T12:13:00.002+08:00

back to blog ! i'm so bored ~~~ today will be my 'rest' day . HAHA ! finally not going out . fist sub class will be on Thursday if i'm not wrong . quite happy though . cause i don't want to be stuck at home . friday will be CCA meeting . gah ~~ can i just skip it ?! body world on Saturday with the Dino's again ! can't wait ! i bet there will be loads of people . -shakes head-

2009-11-02T11:03:00.002+08:00

someone wants me to update !~

okay i'm back to update .

Saturday !

went to grandma's place to play mahjong . was fun as usual . so auntie was nagging to day before . but in the end , she bought us dinner still . loves ! went home really late cause of the rain =.= whole of Singapore was raining though . reached lakeside wen to buy mr bean . then went to bus stop , bus went off right in front of me . so decided to walk in the rain . -seems emo =.= -

Sunday !

went shopping ! disappointing trip though . dint get much . (._.) so went to Chinatown . got to our usual shop and yeah bought 2 tops there since i dint want to get bottoms . wasn't planning to go at first . but , i wanted to see what Rachel was getting for her prom ! so yeah . HAHA ! after so , Dino said he wanted to get shirts as he said he got 3 shirts 10 months before . so went to bugis street . ate burger king and we saw police ! J0 said that they were there to check on cigarettes . but who cares ?! HAHA ! went into bugis street soon after and went to shop for Dino's clothes . saw some really cute shirts . HAHA ! went on to shop for Rachel's shoes . after that , went to this shop . bought my specs as the picture above .

me:i buying this . i look innocent in it !
rachel : you can only look innocent !
me : _|_

she is sooooo irritating sometimes ! went on and Jo wanted to do manicure . so sat there blah blah . Dino wanted to go back to get his shirts . so went to the shop and he said that he got not enough money . need me and Rachel to get extra for him . however , us being short turn memory , we both forgot how to go back . HAHA . got the shirts , went back to find Jo and left for ahma house ! ate dinner and waited for 3rd auntie . after so , headed home .

Today !

slacking at home . watching shows with sis . she's not working again ! stupid girl =.= going to grandma's place again . she cooked nasi lemak . something that my grandma's best at . so , being so me , i'm going down to eat ! again . and packing dinner back for sis . AGAIN ! -although the last 3 times in the week was a failure - HAHA ! so yeah .

tags reply :

Siaochi !: Update !

reply : updated sister ! (L)

YOUR COUSIN.: so i think u need to patronize JP more often already. hahaha. (:

reply : LOL ! but it was UOB that called lurh . so , HAHAHA !

Siaochi !: Wallet found !? HAHA not wasted trip ah

reply : YEAH ! thanks for walking with me ! i know very far . HAHA ! love you many many !

2009-10-30T18:13:00.004+08:00

SDC TODAY !

super fun today !~~~ first was some talk . was fun still at the back . super high ! then was life science thinggy . then was recess . after so , went to SDC ! thought it would be boring at first . but with the people around me , it was fun ! after so , went to JP to collect my wallet . i got it back ! - muacks ! - saw qi there too ! xD picture time !

wanyi !

fifah !

weihao !

taoguang ! : i think until need cut botak i want to cry .

Rebecca !

ShiLin !

hakim ! : he is my older 'twin'

ariany !

Mayble !

tomorrow is my exam day . don't seem to be doing anything about it . but i'm prepared to get just a pass . and that's all i need ! okay , that all for today !

2009-10-29T19:12:00.005+08:00

melissa is no more sorry .
she is happy again !

i'm happy ! haha ! although i lost my wallet . but it's okay ! got my cards back . other then my ez-link card >.> my minitoons card also gone . haiz . but it's okay . i hardly go there anyway . i but sweet also no discount . HAHA ! so yeah . police report and bank . then went to piano lesson . oh yes . and ,

thank you SiaoChi ! (L)

she followed me to the police station and the bank even though she was so tired . love you sister !

tomorrow will be SDC for course =.= then Saturday will be the big day ! xD i know i can pass . so i need to work harder for a higher grade . happy to see that i can do it . all the way !

oh and i'm not going for camp on 13th T.T i'm too busy . getting my results and also working for aunty lam .[bookshop aunty] so yeah . i have yet to tell ChengHao about it . so , yeah . i will go next year for sure . i don't care !

@ 2015

my wallet is found !!!

i was screaming on the phone when i heard about it . so happy ! jurong point rocks ! HAPPY HAPPY !

2009-10-28T16:27:00.002+08:00

has super duper mixed feelings

i'm happy with my results . i improved a lot . although my l1r4 is 14 but it has improved . so i'm happy with that . what course am i taking ? not sure yet . most likely will be taking POA , A math , combine physics chem , social studies with elective geog . i like this combination . [=

i'm sad because i lost my wallet ! FUCK ! at jurong point's toilet ! like wth ! what's wrong with you melissa ng ! went to the customer service and they said that you can make a report there . i don't want ! i just want my wallet !

i'm angry because of junyu and that bunch of bitches . i won't want to elaborate cause i already told myself to forget about junyu's incident and ignore what the bitches say . i'm really feeling bad now . and i wished this particular you would talk to me . i'm really having mixed feelings .

why can i convince others but not myself ? i'm just a wimp ! at least others share with me . i can't take it . i can't cry . i can't do anything . now , not even music can 'cure' me .

dad's says that i need to make a police report . but , what's the point ? just have to get anoter card from UOB and make a new ezlink get a new condo card and i'm done ! right ? i don't know lurh ! i'm so fixed . over what course i can take and now this . but as long as i overcome all this everything will be fine right ?! someone talk to me !!

2009-10-27T21:19:00.002+08:00

my daddy !

i'm happy today !

i don't know why , i'm just happy . perhaps because i sorted out things already . getting bad results may not be okay . but as long as i am willing to work hard next year in my new class , anything is possible ! even if i am with the person i hate most . suddenly , i feel that i have been enlightened ! i just don't know why . perhaps because of the song . it keeps asking 我还有什么可以给你？我的爹娘我的父母。 in english it just means ' what can i give to my parents ? ' yes . what can i give to my parents ? my long left mom and my wonderful and caring dad . i can give them a lot of things . and the first thing i will give them is my grades . it may not be the best . but my grades will be something that i will put 110 % into .

perhaps the lyrics really is so good that i got enlightened ? haha ! oh well !

2009-10-26T21:04:00.005+08:00

i'm totally moodless today . although i have been listening to loads and loads of songs . gosh ! what's with me . oh well , that's not the point . school after the exams are stupid . shall bring my theory there to do . since i have nothing to do . well , gym pictures will be loaded . i'm tired .

sometimes , you just need to accept things the way they are . the words you said went straight into my heart . although it's a fact but i guess a teacher should know at least the background of a student . especially someone like me . it's something hush hush but does not mean it does not hurt . AhYee will know what i mean . right ? <3

i'm getting really really bored !

2009-10-25T21:32:00.002+08:00

forth time today . gosh how bored can i get ?! went to some blogs that i thought i never will go anymore . but oh well ! i'm tired . seems like i cannot watch liverpool and man-u's match . sad upside down . but i'll get the results too ! thanks to the guys . HAHA !

i'm bored ! help me .... school tomorrow . boring ! someone say he will sms in school . you better hor ! cause i'll get really bored ! okay i'm done . haha ! lame shit man !

2009-10-25T18:38:00.001+08:00

this is the third time i'm posting today . ><'' i'm just bored ! btw , changed my skin and blog song . guess i will just leave if for a long time . and the song is 12 minutes btw [= it's a remix of chinese love songs . so here are the lyrics !

Forever Love(王力宏)
愛你不是因為你的美而已
我越來越愛你
每個眼神觸動我的心

兩個人的煙花(黎明)
最愛你的是我
否則你怎麼樣我
否則我怎麼可能赴湯蹈火
你說甚麼都做

如果．愛(張學友)
如果這就是愛
在轉身就該勇敢留下來
就算受傷就算流淚
都是生命裡溫柔灌溉

童話(光良)
我要變成童話裡
你愛的那個天使
張開雙手
變成翅膀守護你
你要相信
相信我們會像童話故事裡

很愛很愛你(劉若英)
往更多幸福的地方飛去
很愛很愛你
只有讓你擁有愛情
我才安心

我願意(王菲)
我願意為你我願意為你
我願意為你忘記我姓名
只要你真心拿愛與我回應
我甚麼都願意為你

好想好想(古巨基)
好想好想
好想好想
好想好想
和你在一起

明天我要嫁給你(周華健)
明天我要嫁給你啦
明天我要嫁給你啦
要不是你問我
要不是你勸我
要不是適當的時候你讓我心動

不得不愛(潘瑋柏/弦子)
天天都需要你愛
我的心思由你猜
I LOVE YOU
我就是要你讓我每天都精彩

陰天(莫文蔚)
開始總是分分鐘
都妙不可言
誰都以為
熱情它永不會減
總之那幾年
感性贏了理性那一面

飛機埸的10:30(陶喆)
baby baby baby baby
baby baby
是不是擁有以後就會開始
要失去
我給你的越多
你卻越想要躲
愛已無法回答所有的問題

那麼愛你為甚麼(黃品源/莫文蔚)
離開你是傻是對是錯
是看破是軟弱
這結果是愛是狠
或者是甚麼

你怎麼捨得我難過(黃品源)
最愛你的人是我
你怎麼捨得我難過
對你付出了這麼多
你卻沒有感動過

愛我別走(張震嶽)
愛我別走
如果你說你不愛我
不要聽見
你真的說出口
再給我一點溫柔

讓我歡喜讓我憂(周華健)
就請妳給我多一點點時間
再多一點點問候
不要一切都帶走
就請妳給我多一點點空間
再多一點點溫柔
不要讓我如此難受

原來你甚麼都不想要(張惠妹)
原來你甚麼都不想要
我不要你的承諾
不要你的永遠
只要你真真切切愛我一遍
就算虛榮也好貪心也好
最怕你把沉默當做對我的回答
原來你甚麼都不想要

用心良苦(張宇)
你說你想要逃
偏偏注定要落腳
情滅了愛熄了
剩下空心要不要

祝福(張學友)
傷離別離別雖然在眼前
說再見再見不會太遙遠
若有緣有緣就能期待明天
你和我重逢在燦爛的季節

吻別(張學友)
我和你吻別
在無人的街
讓風痴笑我不能拒絕
我和你吻別
在狂亂的夜
我的心等著迎接傷悲

把悲傷留給自己(陳昇)
能不能讓我陪著妳走
即然妳說留不住妳
回去的路有些黑暗
擔心讓妳一個人走

征服(那英)
就這樣被你征服切斷了所有退路
我的心情是堅固我的決定是糊塗

聽海(張惠妹)
聽海哭的聲音
嘆惜著誰又被傷了心

味道(辛曉琪)
和你身上的味道
我想念你的吻
和手指淡淡煙草味道
記憶中曾被愛的味道

我懷念的(孫燕姿)
我懷念的是無話不說
我懷念的是一起作夢
我懷念的是爭吵以後
還是想要愛你的衝動
我記得那年生日
也記得那一首歌
記得那片星空
最緊的右手
最暖的胸口

領悟(辛曉琪)
啊！多麼痛的領悟
你曾是我的全部
只願你掙脫情的枷鎖
愛的束縛任意追逐
別再為愛受苦

月亮惹的禍(張宇)
都是你的錯在你的眼中
總是藏著讓人又愛又憐的朦朧　
都是你的錯你痴情夢
像一個魔咒
被你愛過還能為誰蠢動

我們的愛(F.I.R.)
我們的愛
過了就不再回來
直到現在
我還默默的等待
我們的愛
我明白
已變成你的負擔
只是永遠
我都放不開
最後的溫暖

你把我灌醉(黃大煒)
你把我灌醉
你讓我流淚
扛下了所有罪
我拚命挽回
你把我灌醉
你讓我心碎
愛得收不回

眼淚(范曉萱)
哦眼淚
眼淚都是我的體會
成長的滋味
哦眼淚
忍住眼淚不讓你看見
我在改變
孤單的感覺
你從不曾發現
我笑中還有淚

情非得已(庾澄慶)
只怕我自己會愛上你
不敢讓自己靠的太近
怕我沒甚麼能夠給你
愛你也需要很大的勇氣

你是如此難以忘記(梁朝偉)
你是如此的難以忘記
浮浮沉沉的在我心裡
改變自己需要多少勇氣
翻騰的心情該如何平靜

心太軟(任賢齊)
你總是心太軟心太軟
把所有問題都自己扛
相愛總是簡單相處太難
不是你的就別再勉強

Forever Love(王力宏)
Forever Love Forever Love
我只想用我這一輩子去愛你
從今以後
你會是所有
幸福的理由
Forever Love
Forever Love
Forever Love

so there they are ! <3

2009-10-25T14:39:00.006+08:00

saw this in my file while looking through all my old mails . i like this a lot .

What would you do if every time you fell in love with someone you had to say good-bye?

What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?

What would you do if for every moment you were truly happy there would be 10 moments of sadness?

What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt?

What would you do if you loved someone more than anything else and you could never have them ?

Some people live and some people die.

But I want to tell you I love you and you are a true friend..

That I will always be here for you when and if you need me...

If I died tomorrow, you would be in my heart forever.

Would I be in yours?

If you care about the person who sent this to you then you will send it back.

Send this to all your friends...

You might be best friends one year, pretty good friends the next year, don't talk that often the next year, and don't want to talk at all the year after that.

So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life.

I look up to you, respect you, and truly cherish you.

Send this to all your friends, no matter how often you talk, or how close you are, and send it to the person who sent it to you.

Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them, and tell new friends you never will.

Remember, everyone needs a friend, someday you might feel like you have NO FRIENDS at all, just remember this e-mail and take comfort in knowing somebody out there cares about you and always will.

I ~~LIKE~~
MY FRIENDS ALWAYS &
FOREVER! ! !

noticed that i stroke off the like ? well , cause i want to edit it .

I LOVE
MY FRIENDS ALWAYS &
FOREVER! ! !

2009-10-25T10:08:00.002+08:00

mahjong yesterday . i'm happy ! yipee !! -so easily contented =.= - but oh well , at least i'm happy . did a lot of funny things too ! so yeah . reached home at about 9 then bathe then K.O. well , tomorrow's school again . don't feel like going though . tsk ! well , some videos !

2009-10-23T18:06:00.007+08:00

my results sucks to the core . serious . failing math , chinese and english ? that's totally serious . all i have to say is that at least i dint drop to NA . today was really suckish . what other things can i say ? yeah typing this and crying . for what ? what can i do ? NOTHING ! totally disappointed with myself . in school , was moody all day . for ? for something that i did to commit suicide ? that's crazy . back at home . told my dad about it . knowing he is stress , i still took up the courage to tell him . looking at him makes me cry even more .

he asked me if the girl that did 12 assessment books win me ?
i replied yes .
and he added on with something that broke my heart->
see people do 12 assessment books do so well . you never do that's why fail what .

but the thing was , she dint get as high as we all expected ! and that wasn't the point . the point is , he should not just say that assessment book helps ! i know it helps . but not in the sense of doing 12 for EACH subject ! NO ! so , why is he making a fuss over it ? i told him i will work extreme hard for next year no matter what subject combination i got into . this was more then enough to bring me up to what i was 2 years back . with so many subjects to cope , with everything i have on my hands now , i dint complain how tired i was to him . cause i dint want him to feel upset . but he just said something straight into my heart . it hurts . it hurts a lot . i now know i cannot get into physics science from my view . but taking combine science is good too ! who says that combine science is not good ? as long as i'm happy with it . like miss wong said :' no matter what class you go in , it's never the lousiest . it's the best choice for you . don't listen to what others say .' i agree . totally agree .

i'm heart broken , sad and starting to get emotional .

i wonder if mom was here , what would she tell me ? what would i be like ? what would she do to me ? after mom left , i felt that , i've changed . for the worst . am i doing the right thing ? i'm just disappointed in myself . no one is consoling me . why ? not even my dad . not even my sister . i use to thought they love me more then anyone else ! but seems like they just love me . just love . not more then any one else . just not .

you broke my heart ... but i still love you with all the pieces .

melissa hope to talk to someone now . she needs someone to comfort her and talk to her . the best thing will be to enlighten her .

@1907

thanks chenghao for the mail . after i saw it , i felt much happier . that's sk for talking to me . i feel much better now . [=

2009-10-22T20:13:00.002+08:00

today rocks !

for may reasons actually . [=

1st . gym in the morning with qi and yee ! was fun yet tiring .

2nd . piano . made improvements ! at least i am more confident in it . exams next week !

3rd . my blog song ! i like it ! although they are all old songs . but it's nice !

pictures ? i'm lazy ! next time ? xD

tomorrow = death

results are out tomorrow . i got a feeling i'm going to do badly . so i'm enjoying life now with my heart breaking . damn it ! okay that's all ! enjoy my songs . makes me happy ! [=

2009-10-21T19:52:00.002+08:00

am i happy today ?

yeah . can be counted so . i 'm happy . cause today things went smoothly . i won't want my life to be too problematic . but i hope it was too . cause i learn from experiences . heard that english only 8 passes for my class . really worried . hope that i won't drop to NA . but , paper 1 was alright as from what ms nasuha said . hope everything goes well . seriously speaking , i'm not really happy that tomorrow is promotion ceremony . i'm worried . i'm scared . i'm worried that i would disappoint my dad . i don't want that . he has high hopes from me after mom left . i'm scared . i'm scared that i will drop . not that i look down on NA people . if i drop , my 2 years will be waisted . totally waisted . i don't want ! i don't want to let my dad think that he waisted his hard earned money on me . arh !

i just hope for the best .

2009-10-20T17:19:00.003+08:00

i want to go sentosa when the roller coaster is done !

i'm at daddy's office now ! but his computer is so kuku one lor . although it looks new , the things inside is new but his mouse just don't want to move ! so irritating ! went to sentosa in the afternoon and saw a lot of new things . i want to go to the new dophine lagoon ! i want to take the rollar coaster ! i want to take the flying fox ! arhhhh ! it's damn nice lurh ! -faints-

okay then went to garden by the bay . it's still under construction though . HAHA ! went there to see sand only . could have went down . but there is not enough helmet . tsk ! then off to snack . then now at my dad's office . i'm super duper tired now . can sleep on his table one can ? Haha ! but had fun tooo ! got to see many things today .

-

school is starting tomorrow ! no more sleeping to late late and no more slacking at home . hope that tomorrow will have lots and lots of fun in school .

OH SHIT ! I HAVE YET TO FINISH MY THEORY !!!

(@_@)''

okok shall do it tomorrow . -that's what i always say =.=- mamamiyah !!

@ 1852

i'm bored to the max !

i've been here since an hour ago . yet i have nothing to do . only got my ipod with me . sad to the max . so i'm here to complain . haha ! super boreddddd . cannot take it . help me ! the computer can't have sound -> i can't use my head set -> i can't watch videos = bored ! mommy !~

tomorrow's lessons are dry . look forward to Thursday for another holiday . promotions . HAHA . they should just let us go back to school on Thursday and let us have a 6 days rest . stupid school ! but , i hope to never get my papers back . only get to see results that disappoint me . i know what I'm going to get . definitely cannot get into physics chem next year . heart broken to the max one .. but , it's all my fault . play play play . regrets . what the hell am i doing in the first place ? oh well , there's nothing i can do now but see my awful results . so , yeah . i'm lazy to continue .

BORED !

2009-10-19T13:06:00.004+08:00

The Joys & Pains of Growing Up !

I'm re-reading Peter's book all over again ! well , it was out of boredom at first . but , after re-reading just the first chapter , i feel that i have missed out a lot of facts the first time i read it . by reading this , it made me feel that i have done a lot of stupid things in my life waisting my time . my behavior sucks too . as my friends said . I'm acting like a spoilt brat [spoilt bread] . some times , i feel it too . being that young , peter made a lot of progress in his life . i want to be like him also ! arhhhhhhh !

went to jog today . seems like I'm really getting unfit . =.= well , shall built up my stamina during this holidays !

edited @ 1912

forgive everybody and everything every night before you go to bed

well , got this from Peter's book . and i want to do this every night . from now on i guess . perhaps the first thing i will do is to forgive JunYu ? it's hard for me as he created hell for me this year . a lot of forgiving to do with him . although it's after the exams , i still want to make things up with him . i still remember that i quarrelled with him early in the morning . well , that's a stupid thing to do . just don't understand how AhYee does that . she just can't get angry ! jealous of her .

shall do some reflections to night . it's been a long time since I've done that . the last time i did it was in school during CCA . shall do guides own .

sister , its time we do some heart to heart talking yeah ? perhaps all 4 of us . i look forward to this session . Wednesday in class ? since we are sitting together . shall ignore MingZe okay ! (L)

2009-10-18T20:04:00.002+08:00

fuck you msn !

i got hacked again ! like wtf ! stupid lurh ! still considering whether to change email once again ! i hate this lurh ! like why are you blaming me for sending you links which i dint ! _|_ as if i did it on purpose . i know you are playing games but that those not mean i wanted it .

done with that . bought my sport shoes like finally ! and i'm going to make an effort to run everyday rain or shine ! i'm getting fat like no one's business . shit me . shall cut down on my calories too . tsk !!!

going to have camp . not sure to go or not . sound fun as i get to see the st peeps . but i'm not sure of my schedule though . hope that i can make it ! oh ! and i still have to help chenghao contact MinWei ! love one ! why you never answer his phone call ?! HAHA !

shit msn to the core . damn it !

2009-10-16T09:56:00.003+08:00

nice ? i like it ! a lot too . why do people think that china is hmm ... well , i feel that china is much nicer then before . so much too . well , may be going to the place above this holiday . harbin ! it's nice i guess . well , that's not the point .

exams are over ! and i'm going to fail maths ! everyone's saying this =.= what's wrong with the school ! well , what's over is over . so i can't do anything about it too . -smacks head-

5 days of relaxation but i will take the time to work on my theory . so , 5 days no more ! shall enjoy my 5 days to though . daddy's bringing me shopping on sunday ! HAHAHA ! shopping shopping ~~~ happy happy !

@1319

我很丑可是我很温柔 . i like this line . [=

watching fd later ! yipeee

2009-10-13T16:49:00.002+08:00

i like this picture . cause it's nice in the first place . and it fits what i'm going to say .

you are just like the sky ,

looking down on me where ever i am .

whenever i'm sad and i need you with me ,

i just look up and see you smiling back .

you make me happy ,

you can make me sad .

well , i like these lines . better then the ones you wrote ! so i was right . seriously , both of you are going to regret it . cause both of you are equally disgusting . ew !

since i'm talking about love . i would just say this right here to people that are a bit shallow . -not referring to anyone here -

i love you does not mean i fall in love with you .

i love my daddy as my daddy ,

i love my closer girl friends as my sisters .

i love my closer guy friends as my brothers .

i love my friends for being the way they are and also accepting me for who i am .

thus all i have to say is ,

i love you all !

~~but hypocrites , just shoo and fuck off !~~

2009-10-12T19:38:00.002+08:00

i'm a spoilt brat ? yeah somehow i think so too . perhaps i should be more normal . by saving up money to get the things i want . got spoilt from young ! although i do save up for somethings that are more expensive . stupid girl , only giving more reasons .

well , art paper is now done ! and is left with english , DnT and maths . why must mr leow do this to us ? sometimes , i just feel that he don't have the heart to teach our class . also , our class has always the most number of failures for this year and even last year . and you blame us ? you blame us for getting marks that disappoint you . and yet who's the one that taught us for the last 2 years ? you ! arh !

bought my bag . which singyee tempted me . i guess i just like the bag a lot . it's really pretty and well , nice !

ps : tired out

2009-10-11T19:59:00.004+08:00

i want to go disney land !

went to study today ! din't really study . so tired . and and and , daddy's back ! asked him if i could go with qi . he say can . but ~ very troublesome . so i think i won't be going . so he asked me where i want to go . i say i want to go anywhere with disney land . so that i can actually but a lot of toys from there ! then my dad say : 'people go there play you go there buy toys ?' HAHA ! still love him to the max man !

tomorrow's art . seems like i still have to date my theory after my exams . and after the last day of this month , i will finally be free ! all the way Melissa !

2009-10-09T20:45:00.002+08:00

tired . yet happy . i had just dumped science and i'm dating art on Monday . today's paper was okay . so nothing much . went for 'shopping' at JP . just got myself more tempted . (=.=) well , i'm going shopping for clothes soon ! cause i'm getting really fat . yucks ! btw , saw Alvin Lee at JP today . finally i find him short . cause mr shoon and mr chia is so much taller . HAHA ! got to do my theory NOW ! tomorrow got lesson . early in the morning . so , sian ! and and and , i'm going k tomorrow ! and dinner at night . so tomorrow is a busy say yet again . shall sleep early tonight ! which i won't . >.>

4 more to go !

2009-10-08T22:11:00.002+08:00

@ 2211

can see the difference ? 14 years back and now . same person okay ! (L)

2009-10-08T20:43:00.005+08:00

studied with the same people again ! totally no mood lurh . HAHA ! had history and maths paper today . was tough i guess . history was still acceptable . although this fullish girl saw the wrong timing and rushed her work for nothing ! after so , went to library as stated above and jolene took many unglam pictures which are to follow . sorry qi ! HAHA ! i'm lazy . tired . need to study after this for science paper tomorrow !

qi , you don't look that bad after all !

说一声爱你，我很想听

2009-10-07T19:16:00.004+08:00

this is really funny . something that you guys should watch . just for some humor though . [=

today was really fun ! had lots and lots of things in school . laughter everywhere . it started with English . then physics . followed by chinese movie part 3 ! the AVA room was just like our private theater . i like it ! studied with the peeps soon after school . and ming ze came along ! but , a bit too late already boy ! tomorrow's papers are maths paper 1 followed my history . i wonder what's the school examination committee doing . shall not elaborate more . just love today !

love sisters too ! <3

another video ?

(L)

2009-10-06T16:19:00.004+08:00

done art ! yea like finally . today was really a bad day . seriously . it all started with D&T . wen i could have finished my product yet , i broke it . -smacks head- yea . then had to redo . redo until like 30mins . was super duper angry at myself . then had recess . the cookies were not enough . thus , no choice only got to change 3 of them . laksa was the last bowl dint get to eat it . english was irritating . went back to class late and did work gave out cookies . super pissed . shall not elaborate more . after so was art . this was when my day changed ! my colourring skills got better . after so was mother tongue . watched the movie . could not finish it though . so , tomorrow ! after so lunched at mos burger . and went home .

i'm really happy my day changed although my mood is not up now . so , this is my art work !

colour combination

final art work

is it nice ? some comments before Monday ? this is so saddening cause i suck at art . gah !

@1935

i'm touched . if i'm not , i can kill myself immediately . cause after i read what you wrote , tears came rolling down my eyes . i'm really happy that you will share your thoughts with us after our important end-of-year exams . telling the truth , i'm sad inside too . just that , i don't know what i'm sad about . not friends not family . just , don't get it . perhaps crying will be the best solution for me . you're different . so much different . you know what you're sad about . so just pour everything out to me/us and i / we will listen . i hope you won't change just for me . but for yourself as well . i hope i can see the crazy and high da jie again ! love you much !

perhaps i just miss her . loosing her was just something i couldn't take .

2009-10-05T19:08:00.005+08:00

today is the first day after the weekends . kind of liked it actually . especially for a Monday . schooled in the morning . art was a total irritant . forgot to bring my paper . so randomly started colouring . and i liked it ! seriously lor . HAHA ! then physics . one free period . then P.E. fun one lor ! recess went to collect the cookies . choco mint and cream got mixed up . guess it's my fault . sorry ! then was Chinese . movie ! some random show that i dint watch before . so it was okay . xD nice too . tomorrow continue with part 2 ! then was english . 1 more free period . then history . totally dry ~~~ and after so , went to jp for lunch then headed to library for study session . me sing yee one table and jo with qi at the other . soon after , ivan came . and yes he sat with us . then jo's friends came . sat at the other table . then tao guang came . HAHA ! sat with us . jo's table almost got kicked out because they were too noisy . after that went to buy my stationary -which is not all bought yet !- then went home !

i'm so tired . and i feel that sometimes , being left out is good too ! cause i don't really like being with those people though . =x better don't mix too much with them . exams on thursday yet i'm blogging . stupid girl . okay . i'm done ! and i love our table of people today ! hilarious yet study-able . AHAHA ! <3

@ 2148

for one and only _______ <3

i really think that you are keeping things from us . is it wrong to just tell us . you say that you don't know whether to accept him yet you are hanging around with him all day long ! i don't like to see you doing this to yourself . why do you need to keep it at the bottom of your heart ? i feel hurt for both of you . you always tell me that i'm the first person you always look for when having trouble . but not this time . i'm not sad about that . seriously . i'm just thinking , why drag on ? just stop now . it's painful to see you sad all the time . pretending to be happy in front of us . i want the real you . the you before all these happened . i don't know what's at the bottom of your heart leading you to sadness and misery . tell me about it . i'll just listen . i promise . perhaps i'm just crying over something that's totally not my business . but you are my one and only god-sister . i don't want to spoil this relationship with you . we are besties . but i don't feel treated like one . not because you are gossiping behind my back . but for not showing the proper you . the high and crazy you . i really hope that you will go back the way you are and be the happy and crazy girl i knew last year .

i love you . i really do . remember the 7 i love you ? i really do . believe me .

with tears hidden in my eyes . i really hope to see you happy . i thought you were happy but i was wrong . we share sorrows and happiness . that's what friends are for . i hope you understand . i'm not trying to say anything here . just want you to be you again .

with much love ,
NgMelly (:

i wrote it with tears in my eyes not allowing it to fall . i hope you understand . i'm afraid i'll lose a good friend like you .

ilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyily

2009-10-04T12:54:00.003+08:00

group shot ! thanks to all these people for yesterday !!

yes we had much much fun ! the place was nice yesterday . took many many pictures which will be posted later . xD after that , Ahyee , qi , wanxing and me went for supper at macs . which was far away . and we walked there . sang like no ones business . practically like the whole road ours . HAHA ! was super duper fun !!! at macs , also like ours . said something about D____ . cause he said he wanted to find qi . so we say by the time he come we leave already . so we will tell him that there is a particular table for him to go to and he will know where we had gone . the paper reads the follow : we left ! -and qi say that he will be doing _|_ . so there are additional words below - you no need to point already . the table won't point back .

love yesterday ! pictures on facebook already by the way . ^^

edited at 5:22pm

you and your excuses is irritating . other then that all you know is to talk to me ? how many promises have you broken ? i'm not sure . but i just hope it won't go on .

2009-10-03T16:56:00.002+08:00

yesterday's dinner was fun yet irritating . read this ! i'm lazy to type all out so just read her blog yeah ! then today morning wake up pray . after soon went home , sleep ! later meeting the girls for the chinese garden later ! excited . all though it may sound boring . but i bet we can make a lot fun of what we have . gossips and everything !

ps : i need to charge my freaking camera NOW !

NO MORE CHINESE !

2009-10-02T17:50:00.003+08:00

haha ! long time no take with him le ! haha !

today chinese paper . and it's finally over !! it wasn't as hard as we all thought . haha ! D&T after that . love the class ! (L) everyone helped each other like for the first time ! and i mean everyone . it was super nice . and i love it ! finished up part of my product ! that teacher lurh ! never see my number properly ! then he say want to kill me . arh !!

as you can see , he is now at my house . so , yea . HAHA ! want go out soon le . [=

2009-10-01T19:43:00.002+08:00

true ? yea . giving up . giving up of something for another thing which is much better . why not ? sometimes , giving up may be painful . i agree . but sometimes , we just don't have a choice .

tomorrow is my mother tongue paper . i'm nervous alright . just like today . i'm as tired as ever . however , listening to music really helps . all the best people !

some meaningful lyrics :

我总不相信自己　也无法面对现实

当生命失去了光　我就失去了方向

前路依然很模糊　要挣脱许多束缚

你让我依靠　让我坚强　你守护在我身旁

每当我需要依靠你　你一定会在这里

有你的地方　就有阳光　你总会在我身旁

当我还不够坚强　推翻命运的围墙

你还是和我在一起　给我无限的勇气

路依然走得困难　当我变成了负担

你依然把我紧紧拉着　我就是最幸福的

每当我需要依靠你　你一定会在这里

有你的地方　就有阳光　你总会在我身旁

每当我需要依靠你　你一定会在这里

有你的地方　就有阳光

你总会在我身旁

我需要依靠你　你就在这里

有你的地方　就有阳光　你总会在我身旁

sorry for not being able to have the translation . was not able to get it . of to work now !

2009-09-30T17:13:00.003+08:00

disappointed , angry and sad . _|_

disappointed ? angry ? sad ? yes . i am . all of the above . disappointed in myself for not being able to concentrate in class . angry for falling into others trap and sad for her own coming up grades . what's the use now ? tomorrow's the big day . ENGLISH ! yes my compo's tomorrow . and i am now so so afraid . asked questions for maths today after school . maybe mr leow's right . i'm just acting like a big missy . what's wrong with me ? why am i doing this to myself ?

exams are in less then 24 hours . and i'm yet still here fighting against myself . i really can't take it anymore . i going crazy . i need a break soon ! activities after activities after activities . rushing of things for the end-of-year . i need a break . seems happy yet sad . what have i yet to say ?

why was it this way ? this is not what i want . i don't want . don't want !!

2009-09-29T15:54:00.002+08:00

i'm tired and needs a break . i really need it . study is making me go nuts . i bet that everyone is . exams are in just in a day which excludes today . i don't feel as much stress as before . but i am worried for my languages . most importantly English . what if i fail ? of to N.A. i go . i know if i drop , i'm gone . i can't . i need to work harder then before . but what's the use ? English cannot be improved over night . i brought myself into such a kuku state ! what to do ? hope the paper is easy ? that's so stupid ! stupid girl !

2009-09-28T08:57:00.002+08:00

this is my monster ! ahah ! cute right ? xD in school now . as you see , i have finished my work . so i', allowed to use the internet . cheers for me . yesterday was study day . i really studied . from moring all the way till after dinner . what a good girl i am right ? yea . i know . xDD

school's as usual for now . so i just want to show my monster . HAHA ! covent this monster is not you okay ! it's called ovent . xD with a copy right .

have to go now . it's the end of lesson . ^^

2009-09-27T10:41:00.001+08:00

i passed my piano exam !

yes . i passed my exam . actually , i got my results yesterday afternoon . but forgot all about it . HAHA ! just a mere pass . as i expected . i even expect a fail ><'' well a short one today . [=

2009-09-26T18:00:00.008+08:00

forgive even if you can't forget

hard ? not really . but to me it may be . as i said , my heart is small ! ^^ can't blame me for that can you ? (o.o) well , today was a day . went for tuition as usual . and that girl dint even say a word . wow ?! HAHA ! went to eat breakfast and headed to the library to study . could not get a place yet again . =( but it's okay ! cause the main point was to study . got a 'comfortable' place and started studying . from 12 all the way to 5 i guess . in between around 2 plus Rachel came then continued studying . supper happy of how i study today . with AhYee and Raymond . HAHA ! thanks girls ! okay that's all for today !

study later . perhaps tomorrow when i'm all alone at home . kekes ! 4 more days people ! all the best for all !

ps : SIAO CHI WAS THE ONE THAT BOUGHT MY FUJI APPLE ON FRIDAY ! HEARTS FOR HER !

2009-09-25T15:17:00.005+08:00

hardworking ? haha ! i was drawing my 'pencil box' .

it's been a good day today . got pokka fuji apple drink ! go get it . it's like childhood memories ! haha ! then after that first lesson was maths . i got only one word . LOST ! at least Mr Leow made the effort to teach me . but he 'dumped' me at 1230 today ! arh ! then was bio/chem lesson . gosh ! sucks man ~~ but oh well , at least it's understandable . then CME . was listening music and sleeping at that time . since the teacher dint say anything . ^^v english , english worksheet . my summary is good okay ! got most o the points . -thumbs up !- then history . today's lesson was super dry . i mean SUPER . keep falling asleep during lesson . but i got all the points . HAHA . whatever !~

went home with ZiYin . like finally after many many many many months . miss the days . then i am now loading The Final Destination 4 . it's taking me a million years . i want to watch it ! since tomorrow is a Saturday and i can study after i watch it . i hope . xD

i'm finally happy today . when will i be as happy again ? tomorrow ? the next day ? gah ! is life always like that . hope not .

edited at 7:09

saw Covent's tag ? yea . edited one . BIG THANK YOU TO COVENT FOR FINDING MY PHONE AND GIVING IT BACK TO ME ! IT NOT I WOULD HAVE WENT HOME WITHOUT MY PHONE . THANK YOU MANY MANY MANY !

2009-09-24T18:48:00.002+08:00

exams are next week ! oh my mama ! but this means that holidays are coming ~~ happy ! maths from Monday to Wednesday with AhQi and Ahyee . help me !! i need help man ! physics , chinese , maths , art ! yup all these . the rest should not be a problem ! hope that everything goes well for my exams !

sorry but yet another thing happened today . i was totally angry and mad about it until curry noodle came to the rescue . and that's not the point . what's wrong with people these days ? have you got no respect ? throwing my wallet on the floor . what's your problem . there are important things inside my wallet that is not supposed to be thrown and crossed . you dint say sorry and that's not the worst . if it wasn't for Andy , i won't know that you threw my wallet and i was panicking like what ? a retard ? please ! give some respect .

made more attention today . English , Maths . yea not bad . at least i'm getting my facts right . hey girls ! hope you would help me . and yes i will help you whenever i can too ! but if you are not helping me but bringing me harm , i'm sorry again to say that your help is not appreciated and i won't help you either .

you like her is not my problem . i don't have to like her for you to like her . so , if you are the one that asked her to be nicer to me and so that i will accept her , i can tell you that it won't work . my heart is that small and it cannot take in anymore . so i you want to date her , go a head ! be my guest ! cause that's your problem . not mine ! everyone has their own preferences .

my life is still so messed up when exams are near . i'm getting head aches more often now . it sucks . and i hope it's just because of stress .